What I’ve Learned The Last Year

I never really expected people to be better than they are, but it’s fascinating to see just how bullshit the whole “in the face of a true threat, humanity will rise above” concept in stories actually is. I’ve learned that well and truly, the internet has proven that lies spread faster than the truth, and that people will cling to their identities before giving up any chance that they are wrong. It’s not even that hard to convince people that reality is false and that they don’t need to question themselves.

I have learned that I’m not immune from this myself. I’m no paragon. I’m just as shallow a reflecting pool, I just hope I’m not as toxic as most. I certainly don’t talk as much about my beliefs so hopefully that makes me less infectious. Something very important in the last year. 

I’ve learned I really like leggings and skirts and basic workout bras and unbuttoned shirts. I’ve learned I usually like the way I look in the mirror at first glance. I’ve learned that laser hair removal does work, but it’s slow and that it can take a year to notice any real gains. 

I’ve learned more about how much my adhd and self-defeatist attitude keeps me from just doing things. Doing things the “right way” keeps me from doing things at all. I’ve also learned that I’m probably not the best remote worker unless I put my phone in another room. 

Anyway, this year I’m trying to learn how be more social and how to just do the things I want done when I think to do them, speaking of, I want to take my pills so I’m going to do day.