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I am lucky enough to have the opportunity to seek out medication for ADHD. Its been kind of a long time coming, but I've finally hit the "hard stuff" at least as far as Texas goes. Amphetamine salts (Adderall) have always been off the list for me for a number of reasons, from personal stigma to health concerns regarding my other medications. 

Anyway, I've been trying them over the past three months, and I've got opinions. Its interesting how big the difference is. 

I started off with just a basic dose of 2  five mg pills of 'instant release" amphetamine salts. The difference wasn't obvious on the first couple days, but then it clicked. 

Without medication, I'd always describe the struggle to go do something I 'needed' to go do as a fight between the 'need' and how 'sticky' the thing I am doing at this moment was. I am sure the stickiness has some tie to dopamine reactions or whatever, but the stickiness has been basically between me and my tasks. 

On the IR salts, things weren't sticky. I thought about needing to go empty the dishwasher, I could go do it. I also was able to keep a list of things to do in the short term in my head. ( 1. dishwasher, 2. move laundry over, 3. take out trash) I could not do this off of the salts. I also stopped losing things. I remembered where I put things down, and I had an easier time looking through a bunch of similar items to find the one thing I needed, like spices in the spice rack. 

But the IR salts, even as I spaced them out, tended to wear off by early afternoon. The effects lingered but by evening I was just back to the start, more or less. I also would find myself having trouble taking breaks from things that were on my "Need to do" list, which basically meant I was over-focusing on work. I get paid well enough, but they don't pay me enough to get 100% of my attention for 8 hours every day and it was a sort of exhausting. 

I've been on a slightly stronger dose of the extended release salts this month at 15mg pills once a day, I can tell the effect is still around, but muted. What I am doing isn't super sticky during the day, and I can hold a couple of items in a queue in my head. I am losing things again though. 

So I am going to ask for a slight increase in the dose again to 20 mg. I want to find that sweet spot of being able to go just do a thing, hold a list of items, and stop losing my stuff but not working harder than necessary. 

Who am I?

Oct. 2nd, 2024 10:31 am
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 Hello! It’s been (*checks blog*) 6 years since I last introduced myself and I’m trying to be a little more active in social media as a sort of self-improvement/writing exercise. If it’s another 4 months/years until the next post, I probably failed, alas.

I am Hadassah, or Haddie. She/they pronouns. I’m Jewish, positively cynical, endlessly empathetic, and a writer. I have adhd and a well managed seizure condition, and I am very introverted. I’m more than just shy, but actively struggle with taking up space with other people. Even on platforms where people volunteer to look at my material outright.   I’m in my mid-thirties, married to a very ( compared to me) Offline person, and have two cats and one dog. 

I’m a coffee fiend, an enjoyer of meta fiction and non-DnD TTRPGs, and an incorrigible sitter-on-counters and -tables. I’m a novice at programming, have written two books that I’ve published online for free, and I’m recording an audio book of one, slowly. 

is that enough sharing? Is it too much oversharing? I guess that’s all I-

Oh, my avatar is of a four armed kobold/golem/ram/scorpion/thing. I think of it as a VR avatar, or  Vtuber persona thingy, so I don’t label myself as a furry, though I won’t deny anyone wanting to accuse me of it. I’ll talk about it more later maybe! Here’s a bigger picture. Have a good day!

Image of the author’s online avatar, a four armed kobold with ram horns, dark eyes and a scorpion tipped tail. It is wearing a black skirt and a cropped shirt that shows their belly peircing, with the vague glow of Hebrew characters glowing under the top. The mood is generally melancholy and thoughtful
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I have trouble keeping up with any conversation I am not 100% engaged with at that time. Maybe this is, like, not terribly uncommon overall, but its been a bigger problem lately. I know audio processing issues was circulating as a side effect of ADHD on the interwebs lately (and I do have ADHD, to be clear), but regardless of the source, it leads to mild to moderate frustrations regularly. At low stakes, I can't take in new languages aurally because I can't parse them except at the slowest setting. Generally I struggle with any visual media unless there are subtitles, no matter the language.

Even live and IRL, sentences blur together to create or delete important context. If I am not paying attention to a person at the beginning of a statement, I often miss the end of it. 

Yesterday/today is a perfect example. I was getting coffee for in the morning and we were talking about the sourdough bread my spouse had brought home from a coworker at work. In the middle of the conversation - one that I was participating in - I heard the phrase "We can have toast and eggs ~~~~ tomorrow". I even clarified, because my brain was on coffee fixing, and they said "Toast and eggs, for tomorrow's ~~~~"

My SO didn't say "tilde" four times. My brain had to fill in the gap because I failed to process it twice and didn't even realize. When I woke up, I made breakfast. When my spouse came down, I'd made toast from the sourdough and asked them how they wanted their eggs. They were bemused, and didn't know what I was doing. When I explained that they mentioned eggs and toast, and they said they planned it for dinner.

Obvious, of course, in hindsight. My spouse doesn't really like breakfast until they've been up at lesfor an hour or so, and by then they would be heading for work. I just... filled in the wrong answer. For their part, they were appropriately politely appreciative, and did eat some of the eggs and toast but they weren't, like, excited for it. 

And I've now spent the day thinking about how much these little hiccups cause confusion in my world. It's affected the media I consume, and how I interact with the world. I didn't even want to write this as my first personal post in a while, but I this kept jabbing me in the back of the head. 


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I never really expected people to be better than they are, but it’s fascinating to see just how bullshit the whole “in the face of a true threat, humanity will rise above” concept in stories actually is. I’ve learned that well and truly, the internet has proven that lies spread faster than the truth, and that people will cling to their identities before giving up any chance that they are wrong. It’s not even that hard to convince people that reality is false and that they don’t need to question themselves.

I have learned that I’m not immune from this myself. I’m no paragon. I’m just as shallow a reflecting pool, I just hope I’m not as toxic as most. I certainly don’t talk as much about my beliefs so hopefully that makes me less infectious. Something very important in the last year. 

I’ve learned I really like leggings and skirts and basic workout bras and unbuttoned shirts. I’ve learned I usually like the way I look in the mirror at first glance. I’ve learned that laser hair removal does work, but it’s slow and that it can take a year to notice any real gains. 

I’ve learned more about how much my adhd and self-defeatist attitude keeps me from just doing things. Doing things the “right way” keeps me from doing things at all. I’ve also learned that I’m probably not the best remote worker unless I put my phone in another room. 

Anyway, this year I’m trying to learn how be more social and how to just do the things I want done when I think to do them, speaking of, I want to take my pills so I’m going to do day. 

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So I participated in the a twitter pitch thingy. More or less, its an opportunity to post a 240 character pitch of the novel one is querying and hope for an agent or publisher to 'like' it. A bunch of authors participate and often retweet each other's posts in hopes for that sweet sweet exposure. 

I'm a little cynical as to the twitter posting catching an agent eye, if only because of the number of people throwing their work into the ring. I'd normally not participate, but someone I'd swapped beta reading with was excited about it, and I figured I could participate with them this once. 

The one I particularly participated in wasn't one I recognized, for "Insecure Writers Support Group" with the particular tag of #IWSGPit . 

It was fine. I definitely had more people boosting my tweet than I am used to in other pitch events (I suspect this one is pretty small) but I did feel compelled to retweet others as a result. Sorry to those who might follow me on twitter. I'll be sure to gush about the event's success if I get any sort of interest from actual agents (I got liked by a few writers who should have known better), but until then, I just need to slowly clear out my timeline with more retweeted news that horrifies me again, but at a much slower pace. 
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 I've been playing a game called Outer Worlds and I don't think I am going to finish it. Some spoilers follow for the plot, and I am mostly going to talk about what I didn't like, so... avoid if you want to see and enjoy the game untarnished.

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Outer Worlds was a relatively well acclaimed game of last year. If you are familiar with video games, its world is akin to pre-collapse Bioshock in space, but plays more like Fallout 3/New Vegas. If you aren't familiar, its more or less set in a space colony run by ten or or so companies who manage the various habitable planets and people via capitalism. Its gone bad, of course, and you, as a single member of one of the colony ships that went adrift in transit, are awoken to help out. 

The game is smart and funny and overall is relatively anti-corporate-owns-and-runs-everything, in a black comedy sort of way. I like several of the companions you meet, and its nice and bright and colorful as far as gameplay goes. 

I'm just not having a whole lot of fun with the gameplay, and the setting is getting more depressingly realistic for me, and isn't quite self-aware-grim for me to think the game is taking its own premise seriously enough. 

I was getting tired of the gameplay loop before I ended up in the big capital in-universe, which primarily was: find decent gear, upgrade it and equip it for yourself and each of your companions so you can just trounce through enemies, kill your way to objective, make slightly difficult choice that has a clearly *better option*, get new quest and new planet, and re-gear everyone. Sure, you can stealth some, but you don't get experience or any prize for avoiding fights and its a remedial (Stealth score + avoiding direct line of sight + Crouch) system, so its slow too. I mean, Its fine, but I've already been feeling myself just stop bothering for subtlety or carefulness and just waltzing into fights. 

Almost all the enemies are beasts, robots, mindless cannibal marauders (the game assures us that there is no moral concern for killing these former humans), and occasionally a few paid mercenaries. Almost all people, except those who have an explicit quest role, have no names either. Just 'Resident' or some such, making me, the player, feel a little like the corporations, reducing people down to their value to the player. 

But I think what broke me was making it to the Big City! Everywhere else had been a satellite colony or a small homestead answering in some form or another to big daddy corporate. Now, though, I'd see the heart of the beast, where the evil happened. And its just a bureaucracy trap. It sucks for the people here too! Poorer people are paid to wait in line and the buildings and walls have holes and exposed conduits, because maintenance requests didn't use the latest form- Ha ha! (you dont see these lines or non-working maintenance folks anywhere, you are just told). 

I am sounding really dismissive, but I think part of my problem is that I live and breath a corporate-bureaucratic-capitalist nightmare company and... they are not like this. Yes the paperwork sucks, but the companies would do everything in their power to give the veneer of perfection so people would think things were still going well. There were just rich people complaining about how their vending machine stole their quarter, talking about suing the technicians.

(editor's note: note, I went on for another eight or nine sentences, nitpicking issues with this all, and realized I was just belaboring. Consider the above my restrained commentary).

Bureaucracy traps should have at least half the people chained to their processes, sure, but half the people in this city must also be subverting the rules (not just with bribes, hyuk hyuk) to patch walls in the city, because they know that if they don't, they lose their job, and there was just no evidence of that in the game (at least to where I played). There was no desperation in this city, and I know that there should have been so many tight smiles to strangers who could be corporate thought police, and muttered conversations about how they are going to survive on luxury silk, corporate lies, and exposed sewage leaks. 

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Its fine that the story I want is not the story being told. I was just sold on a story that was pretty brutally anti-corporation, but found it was a little more Monty Python or SNL than I wanted. I caught myself selecting a dialog option and shaking my head in a *this doesn't make sense* way too many times. 

Its a good game. I finished the companion stories and felt satisfied. The Outer Worlds is just not as biting or engaging as I need it to be.

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 I just read the most delightful book called Strange Practice by Vivian Shaw. It follows Greta Helsing who's a physician for the undead in London. She's got a practice, and works for impoverished ghouls, displaced, decayed mummies and the vampires suffering depression from death-long ennui. 

Its so wonderfully... mundane. Greta's no ancient slayer of the undead, just a physician with a particular specialty. She's friends with the undead and other supernatural which all have their own problems, and when one of them ends up harboring a vampire who by all accounts was stabbed by some lunatics in monk outfits, she finds that her friends and the city are under attack. 

I can stop making up the book blurb for your purposes, its well worth a check out if you are interested in a wholly contemporary book that feels like its written in the style of the 1800s. I found myself struggling to remember that she's got a cellphone and a broken down old mini, but not in a bad way, just in that the style feels very old school. 

The book is smart, and does some surprising and well crafted turns. I love a world that looks like one I could take the right (or perhaps wrong?) turn and end up in, with real characters doing the mundane things even among the fantastic. Its very much like my book in that marrying the reality and unreality. 

I am already starting the sequel via audiobook. 

Its definitely a more fun and creative story than that new Moffat Dracula show, which is very spineless in its trying to be edgy, and very mixed in tone and quality. 

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No promises to myself or others, but I wanted to post somethings here since I don't post stuff on any other social media and sometimes its nice to have a place. 

The new year has started pretty meh from a world perspective, and I am not particularly optimistic its going to get better. I'm trying to limit the amount I focus too much on world events that I can't impact without radical change, but finding that balance between keeping my finger on the pulse but my mind out of the mire is going to be a struggle, I can tell. 

I got my ears pierced, which is cool and nice and something I'm happy about. I'm also doing some other long term self-improvement things where I can. It feels good to have control of something for myself. I still have strides to go, but I am going to make them as I can. 

I've got my book through Draft 7 again and I want to try to query it again. I don't have any hope, tbh, but I feel like with this last serious run at things, I can take the rejections with a sort of solace that frankly, I can publish online and declare mission accomplished, if only to get myself past this hurdle. I've never had this much angst about my fanfiction and I don't expect to get paid for them either. 

Long term goals are to make more friends this year and/or a community to dive into. 

Maybe more later all. Have a good day all!
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So, I’m a writer. Not published anywhere but the places you can publish for free on, but still. The big dream one day is to get a published novel out there. Below are the novel ideas I’ve gotten further than three chapters into writing, including a finished novel that didn’t elicit much response with agents (alas).


Colony Ship Breakdown (Draft 1, 40k words in): A colony ship on a six-hundred year long journey run by half a dozen AI is having severe trouble mid transit. Normally an entirely unmanned trip, they wake up Jamus to help engineer fixes for their problems, the only problem being is that Jamus is a terraforming engineer without a lick of experience on interstellar travel. Jamus must navigate cagey AIs with unclear directives to enforce secrecy, a ship that seems to be falling apart around him, and a growing solidarity and friendship with an agender AI that the others have been isolating for over a century.


Surviving Protagonists (Finished, or pre-draft 6): Stories supposed to be about protagonists, but on an Earth where this issue is deadly serious, Erin just wants to avoid the local Protagonists just like every other still self-aware human. Unfortunately for her agency, her office’s Protagonist has taken an interest in her personally. When the Plot demands, Erin is trapped between choosing to give up her agency by playing along with these outsiders using her world for fun or losing it permanently by trying to fight a malign fate.


Animus ex Machina (3 Chapters in): Sylvanna is ancient in the world of self driving cars, one of the first street-legal fully-autonomous cars. Having survived more owners, fender benders, and wrecks she had any right, she’s even outlived the company that designed and maintained her increasingly obsolete code, without anyone realizing that she’s more than the sum of her software. When she’s stolen for a bank robbery, Sylvanna may need to reevaluate being man’s best transport. Given that her new owners were smugglers, Sylvanna realizes may need to start being more aggressive about proving her worth to avoid the scrap heap. It also might mean learning to trust her new backseat driver as she gets the opportunity to show these humans the real spirit of road rage.


Enchanted to Death: Deidre Windwillows shouldn’t have been at the preservation ruins on the night she died. Becoming a Master Enchanter wasn’t just enough, she wanted to have a research paper that would impress even her demanding parents. She figured if she’d been caught, she would have been arrested maybe, and gotten a fine. Instead, some shadowy figure killed her on the spot. When her vestigial spirit watched her killer also steal her body, Deidre found the motive to sear her spectral form into reality, becoming a banshee intent on two simple tasks. She’d finish her thesis, and by the gods, Diedre would kill the bastard that stole her body.

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I am writing this mostly because I don't want to get out of the blogging habit so quickly, so please forgive a lack of ongoing coherency as I find my footing.


Into the Spiderverse: I saw Into the Spiderverse and loved it. I am not going to give it a full review here, because, frankly, everyone worth their salt seems to have seen it and loved it too, which is good, so see those reviews. The visuals were stunning, though there were parts where it looked like we accidentally got shown the 3d version of the movie. I think it was definitely the normal version (I think?), but the way they tried to drive your focus was strange and a hair hard to follow on the big screen. I think that’s like my only complaint. It was wonderful throughout, though I missed the credit stinger because I had to go pee so badly.


Self-Indulgent Writing: I so rarely write something for only myself to ever see, just because an idea struck me, that it feels worth noting. Often I feel that writers are pushed to produce something of value, that it can be hard to just write a story because you want to see it on paper. At least I struggle greatly with that. I actively have to push past feeling discomforted by self indulgence, because it feel so… well, selfish? I guess? Anyway, its just a smutty story with too much world building that I’ll vault when I feel done with it because the premise is the sort of careless "Wouldn't this be interesting" that needs way more research and finesse to pull off without being insensitive. When I get tired of it, I will go back to things that I am more comfortable with, and are more intended for sharing. For now, I'm throwing caution to the wind and enjoying it.


God of War: I’ve watched my significant other play God of War over the break. It’s good.  I can see why its so high on many people’s best of the year list. It’s pretty incredible how much effort they put into building the world and setting the stage for a sequel. I am not sure I love the mechanics of the little puzzles and combat. I am sure it feels nice, and it does look nice, but it doesn’t grab me so much. The world building is great, but I am going to be sad that it will be a few years before I see any more.


I’m glad the familial obligation of family is over this season. I’ve had enough of them of late. Too much transphobia, racism or ultranationalism in some form or another, and my tongue hurts for the biting.

I need to go get coffee now, and poke around more at this smut, I suppose.

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Recently I read all 7 volumes of Radioactive Spider-Gwen’s core run (Volumes 0 through 6). Written by Jason Latour and illustrated mostly by Robbi Rodriguez (there are a number of guest artists that take over individual issues). It is the story of Gwen Stacy, bitten by a radioactive spider and given incredible abilities with which she tries to do good while also managing her day to day life.

It’s a familiar story for a reason, as Gwen Stacy’s life is very much a reflection of Spider-Man’s long history of the same. Gwen’s life is so dripping in reflection of Spider-Man, that she cannot escape that she is an oddity, an aberration in the nigh-infinite multiverse that Marvel has established. In nearly every other universe, Gwen Stacy was just the normal romantic interest of Peter Parker (Spider-Man), before her untimely demise, more or less an accident of fate at Peter’s hands (usually). In nearly every other universe, Gwen Stacy is the dead motivation that Peter constantly mourns, which makes her interactions with Peter Parkers in other universes very awkward.

So, the question is whether or not a character that was more or less intended as a throwaway oddity character in a multiverse event that was supposed to feature Peter Parker (of course) can stand alone. Radioactive Spider-Gwen is one of the comics that tried to answer this, and for me it succeeds, but it has issues that people who must have a complete, continuous story will hate.

Enter your cut contents here.

I just want to review Radioactive Spider-Gwen as it stands alone, not her entire canon. This is partially because tracking down all the canon is annoyingly hard (thanks comics industry) but also because I could spend paragraphs rambling about what the metanarrative of Gwen Stacy means to me (and I will, in a future post).

I am not going to get into the detail and fandom controversy of her existence in the fandom here. There are better reviews and discussions regarding the whole existence of Spider-Gwen out there. If you want to know about the history and fandom reaction, I recommend this video overview by Movie Bob, which highlights much of the history.  

Characterization:

In the core comics, Gwen Stacy is more or less your average down-on-her-luck superhero. She lives in an overcrowded apartment in New York City with her bandmates (she’s the drummer in the band “The Mary Janes”) trying to make ends meet with gigs and part-time jobs. She’s not hyper brilliant, but she’s relatively grounded, with friends and a supportive father. As Spider-Woman, she’s wanted as a fugitive, blamed for her part in killing Peter Parker, who’d turned himself into the Lizard in a fit of “bullied nerd and misunderstood genius” fervor. She’d been initially very cavalier about her powers, trending towards using them bombastically, and the Lizard was the first real super-powered villain she’d fought. Below is Gwen Stacy in her instantly recognizable Spider-hoodie, and her out of it:

Spider Gwen in her classic hoodie outfitTired Gwen, meeting an old friend

Gwen’s personality and nature heavily reflect her literal awareness of her relative “luck” as far as being alive goes. She’s met a dozen different Peter Parkers, even by the time this comic’s timeline really gets going, and all of them are dramatically traumatized by seeing her alive. She’s consistently carries herself forward, in spite of how done with everything she always is. She loves the power and control over her own life that being Spider-Woman affords her, even as it attracts people around her that constantly wish to leash her agency. She’s excited to be Spider-Woman, even if that means being Gwen Stacy is harder.

Even as the comics progress and more people find out that Gwen Stacy is Spider-Woman (she isn’t exactly afraid to whip off the mask to defuse or take control of a situation), she struggles to retain her powers even as the universe seems desperate to take them from her, often literally.

As a writer of characters who consistently just want to be able to live their life in peace, as they want to live it, Spider-Gwen is exactly the kind of character that is my jam. I can feel how tired she is in every drawn line of her head - face down on the table of her favorite taco place.

Many of the other supporting characters are great as well, such as her father’s conflicted nature about her double life, bouyed by his absolute faith that she is doing the right thing, even if it makes his life difficult. Peter Parker’s aunt and uncle are also common and recurring characters, and play more of a role in her life than Peter Parker ever spared Gwen Stacy’s family in another life. Her bandmates are all distinct, but take backseat (much like Gwen Stacy’s normal life in general) to the numerous villains and other superheroes. The other super-folk are mostly interesting in their contrast to the usual canon, but its an extension of the artful rearrangement the world needed to have for such an oddity as a world without Peter Parker.

Art:

The art for the comic is bright and contrasting, with neons and blues and oranges and violets abound, with clean line work that avoids heavy shadowing for more monochrome shading. Its pleasant and flowing to the eyes, but I could see some people wanting slightly less bright coloring and more complicated shading work. It works for me personally. The art is not infinitely consistent, but I much prefer when an artists draws to the scene, rather than get the same carbon cutout appearance both in elated and despondent moments. It may turn off some readers though. Below’s a pretty good example:

Spider-Gwen being totally responsible


Story:

Gwen’s story is kind of hard to tell without going into great detail in how its different than the usual stories with Peter Parker. Gwen Stacy deserves more than just being compared to Spider-Man constantly, so I’ll keep it reader agnostic.

The volumes more or less follow Gwen as she falls into the pattern of wanting to being Spider-Woman, often at the expense of those around her, in spite all her efforts to prevent it. Her father is a police officer and was the detective assigned to capture Spider-Woman. When he finds out her identity, he quits the force, realizing that he’d been caught up in the propaganda villainizing her. Following his departure from the force, she becomes stalked by a far more dangerous police officer with a blacked-out military history named Frank Castle, who’s willing to go to extreme ends to find her and punish her father for failing to do his duty. She finds herself crossing paths with the Kingpin of New York, Matt Murdock, a blind but superpowered Lawyer who’s also taken an unhealthy obsession with her.  When the cure to her friend, Harry Osborn, who was exposed to The Lizard Serum and would also means she can get her powers back, she only hesitates momentarily, even if it means bonding with a dangerous symbiote named Venom in the process. As things become more and more involved and deadly, Gwen Stacy realizes that she must either make a deal with Kingpin or watch her father go to jail or worse for the crimes of aiding and abetting Spider-Woman.

There’s much more to the story, such as her increased detachment from her family and friends and her band, as she tries to keep her Superhero-ing from affecting their life. There are also several crossovers into other super-stories, as she finds herself flung to other dimensions even when she's trying to do a normal day, given her history with hopping between the multiverse.

Of particular note and as a small hint to the sort of multiverse-madness she is often involved in, there are a few issues dedicated to ‘this’ Gwen Stacy going back to the “Original” Gwen Stacy’s timeline and… saving her from her unending fate as Peter Parker’s Dead Girlfriend. It ties into that whole separate post I want to put together, but look at the art-structure as “modern Gwen” is transported to classic Spider-Man’s comics. I love the contrasting art styles as old meets new (and Spider-Gwen’s summarized feelings on Peter Parker):

Spider Gwen Meets Original Gwen in the classic comic

Pacing:

As far as the story telling goes… it’s honestly pretty choppy as part of Spider-Gwen’s entire schtick is that she’s a significant part of the Spider-Man multiverse. There are a number of events that happen in other comics that aren’t included in these six volumes, many of them plot relevant. One key example is that she lost her powers during an encounter in between volumes 1 and 2, in the comics of “Spider-Women” a short seperate volume of six comics.  I am okay with the choppiness, as someone who has often watched many different tv series while missing two- or three-episode chunks, but it does suck that there isn’t an easily available omnibus of all of Gwen Stacy’s adventures in chronological order.

There are a few dropped plot threads, that are clearly meant to be picked up later in the story, but for now, are just the sort of bread crumbs that need following later in the canon. One thing that is impossible to really get is true closure on most comics in a perpetual motion device like Marvel Comics, but the story does end on a good, solid beat where it feels like we got a complete story, if not the final, finished legacy of Spider-Gwen.

Overview:

In spite of the choppiness, I feel like I get a great closed arc and story, enjoyable in a way that I’ve not felt in forever with comics. Given that my enjoyment of most media is driven by the characters involved, mostly by Spider-Gwen’s exhausted reality constantly catching up with her joy at being able to save her little part of the world in her own way.

I’m not a good summarizer, so I will leave it at: I recommend the story for sure, but as a unique modernization of a story that is more than forty years old. You can find Volume 0 of Radioactive Spider-Gwen  (Which contains issues 1-5 of the original run, and provides a lot of her backstory and sets up much of what discussed above) on just about anywhere comics are sold. It is free via the Amazon Kindle Unlimited/Comixology subscription, so if you still have a free trial to kick around, you might add it to the list of things to try out.

Back Cover of Vol 6 of Radioactive Spider Gwen

 

Thanks for reading and have a good day!



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Spider-Gwen: I loved the basic idea of Peter Parker’s long frigded love, Gwen Stacy, in a twist in the multiverse survives instead of Peter Parker and becomes Spider-Woman. I just finished the core run of the series (Volumes 1 through 6). I guess I will do a full review soon so I won't go into detail, but in the mean time I am looking forward to find more comics with Gwen to see her whole story (she’s all over the multiverse in crossovers). Also looking forward to talk about my thought on her meta-narrative on tired Marvel stories overall. And hey, she’s in a movie out in theaters now!

She-Ra And the Princesses of Power: Given that I’ve already watched this series about three times, I think it safe to say that this is among one of my favorite things as of late. As I described it once on Twitter, it follows a storm trooper who finds a magical sword and while realizing she's been on the side of evil all along. Her girlfriend feels abandoned and instead embraces her role in the Empire. Both of them learn the value of friendship and learn how to get over the emotional abuse of their parental figure. 
 
While ostensibly a kids show, this story does a great job of finding a balance in showing the evolving relationship between two people just entering adulthood and having to make their own choices, both with regard to their peers and to the adults that have guided their life up to now. I want to write a little about how its obviously a very queer show, but that its still obvious that no one can directly address "girlfriends" or "Like-like" in children's show between people of the same gender, at least, not in the first season. I'm also writing a fanfic with She-Ra where the two main characters (Adora and Catra) swapped the sides they ended up on. 
 
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For the most part, I  am not a person of many active interests, so right now, these things are the ones that have my attention right now. Feel free to ask if you want more specifics, but I plan to write more about it soon. 
 
Have a good day!
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Things to do today:

Build up Dreamwidth Blog:
- Write that first post - Done
- Try to make good impression - Eh...
- Figure out how tags/profile work
- Do tags get put in a particular order, can you categorize?
- Update tags
- Add Spider-Gwen
- Add She-Ra and the Princesses of Power
- Update Sunshine Tag
- Change From "Sunshine" (Disambiguious) as I have no personal interested in Sunshine (Sun)
- Change To "Sunshine by Robin McKinnley" (Book)
- Update Blog colors/layout
- Green or purple main colors?
- Consider if Profile bio is complete
- Consider future blog topics
- Discuss Spider-Qwen's implications, the relevant twitter thread, and why the fridged SO has been ruined for Marvel Character Motivations
- Share Current projects?
- Muse about She-Ra still has to tap-dance around queer romance in first season
- Describe some favorite books and series?
- Worry about my creative process being too heavily focused on characters, to the detriment of world building, scenes, and tone
 
Read:
- Goddess Mode Issue #1 by Zoe Quinn
 
Write:
- Work on fanfiction
- Work on original work
 
Go to:
- Optometrist
 
Eat:
- Lunch (Missed/ just a half-sleeve of saltines and coffee)
- Dinner - Chicken Noodle Soup
 
Chores:
- Do dishes
- Laundry
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